the rabbit hole is seriouslyyy going deeper... i guess the more I think about what i'm doing.. .and how things aren't really producing any results... i get more and more discouraged... i was thinking about my academic youtube site and was wondering.... how long before i actually generate revenue from ads for this site? 6 months? 12 months? and even then... how much revenue would i be able to get?

so i really know that i need to find an outside source of income... my mentor James Han (CEO of Pros for Pros) proposed two new projects with me... one of them is a monitor site.. where we sell refurbished monitors... and the other is a site based off of the woot site where we sell a really cheap item each day hoping to generate high amounts of volume... and the key to each site right now is to limit and minimize the marketing costs... so instead of investing in high PPC costs... we hope that it can become viral... and so hopefully after the site is up... I will be able to generate some passive income.. while working on other things...

the first proof of my regret book came in sometime last week... overall, i am more than impressed with the presentation and look of the book... with a few changes... i think it would genuinely look professional and great... so maybe 1-2 more weeks for changes to take place/me to receive the second proof and then for me to market it.... bummer that i don't think i can get it in time for christmas... o well....i guess it saves me from feeling like even more of a failure if it doesn't even do well in christmas sales... ... but yeah.. after some research.. i plan to send it in to various companies (including urban outfitters, costco, barnes n noble, borders..) we'll see how that goes... hopefully that can generate an OK amount of passive income as well... see with this book.. it can go either of two ways i believe... either it will be a hit and continue to sell throughout the nation... whereupon i can release a second edition of the book.... or.. it can completely flop and no one wants to sell it.... i REALLY hope its the former... but chances are it'll be the latter.. oh well.. it's nice to know i have a book.... but then again... shit... maybe if it flops.. i can send it into publishers... and see if they'll be willing to market it... we'll see...

finally... my job search has really seemed to flop..... blah.. don't really want to get into the details of it.. but i havn't been able to secure a job yet... i guess i'm not necessarily looking VERY hard for one... just sorta/kinda... and i guess if i really put in effort.. i could find one... but i guess i feel like im too busy doing other things in my life...

oh! that reminds me... i sent in a tshirt for threadless to look at.... hopefully it gets picked!

http://www.threadless.com/submission/186779/Food_Fight?streetteam=xpiamchris

so the whole project million thing looks slim right now.. but i'll continue to hustle... and try my best at it...